Man. Going back and reading my posts from 3 years ago really makes me miss my old life. I know good things are ahead m, but right now my life sure is at a difficult point. That was back before graduation, back when I was bulletproof, back when I thought I was God’s gift to women (somewhat kidding), back before so many of the closest people I know moved away, back before Mary and me decided to he whatever we were, then finding out I loved her after all that time, before I moved to the big city chasing a dream of a big desk working for a Fortune 500 company and finding out that nothing about that is what I want. Before I moved back home on a whim to take a dead end job as a temporary fix to rediscover how tough this job market is, but vowing not to give in and regret the decision I’ve made. Before I went on this rampage of self pity and one night stands, meaningless relationships, and drinking far too much. All before I was laying here in this bed, in this room, thinking about the girl I may go see this weekend and hoping it’s not the girl that left such a mark on me that plays my mind this night, or the night I’m with the other girl this weekend. They say nobody likes you when your 23, but 26 year old me is a pretty big fan of that guy.
I don’t want to think about you when I’m with her, but I suppose I’ll force myself through it the same way you did.
Thinking about starting a blog where even you turkeys cant read when I’m writing…yeah. Some real CIA ish
Please, don’t worry so much. Because in the end, none of us have very long on this earth. Life is fleeting. And if you’re ever distressed, cast your eyes to the summer sky when the stars are strung across the velvety night. And when a shooting star streaks through the blackness, turning night into day… make a wish and think of me. Make your life spectacular. I know I did.
I see a lot of yall posting up pictures of trucks, re blogging Luke Bryan quotes, and talking a lot of country but I’ll raise you your shenanigans against my family. My uncle when we’re drinking moonshine would be a grand example.