"I tell you now that I don’t understand why everybody gives a big hot damn, on where I’m going to. Don’t mean a thing to you."

16 days till I see the Kings.
Need to get away for a bit.

I’ll never understand why I’m happier alone. I practically pushed her out the door tonight, I just want someone to break the cycle.



It’s important to remember that the events we see today, domestic and abroad, are not unique to the time we live in. These problems have existed in our society long before anyone on this website was born, and it will likely be a very long time before these problems go away, if they ever do go…

Good night in Boone town.  #appstillsucks. #appstate. #boone

Good night in Boone town. #appstillsucks. #appstate. #boone

Man. Going back and reading my posts from 3 years ago really makes me miss my old life. I know good things are ahead m, but right now my life sure is at a difficult point. That was back before graduation, back when I was bulletproof, back when I thought I was God’s gift to women (somewhat kidding), back before so many of the closest people I know moved away, back before Mary and me decided to he whatever we were, then finding out I loved her after all that time, before I moved to the big city chasing a dream of a big desk working for a Fortune 500 company and finding out that nothing about that is what I want. Before I moved back home on a whim to take a dead end job as a temporary fix to rediscover how tough this job market is, but vowing not to give in and regret the decision I’ve made. Before I went on this rampage of self pity and one night stands, meaningless relationships, and drinking far too much. All before I was laying here in this bed, in this room, thinking about the girl I may go see this weekend and hoping it’s not the girl that left such a mark on me that plays my mind this night, or the night I’m with the other girl this weekend. They say nobody likes you when your 23, but 26 year old me is a pretty big fan of that guy.

I have no idea what I’m doing.  #confuseddog. #shame

I have no idea what I’m doing. #confuseddog. #shame

I don’t want to think about you when I’m with her, but I suppose I’ll force myself through it the same way you did.

There’s a face in my beer.  #halpimtrapped. #lagunita.

There’s a face in my beer. #halpimtrapped. #lagunita.